Poem by Blue Robinson
Floating in darkness pulling anxiety from my throat like hair
Why, why, why 1 ask God, why am I here?
There's people around me and there's doors
I wanna run far, far away but I look down and there aren't any floors
Tlift my bum and lay flat in the space
Wishing I had superpowers to create a mirror
where I could see my face
Suddenly, suddenly there's a screaming in my head
The end of another horrid day in my comfortable bed
I close my eyes but I do not rest
Tears on pillow, and sheets to breast
Finally as I sleep at night
I dream of death, such a beautiful sight
Brown woman in a cold world
Immature outlook, one blue girl
The pressure is starting to close in tight
But I promised my baby
I would try with all my might
Addiction slowly consuming me
I wish to be someone I'll never be
Falling, falling deeper into the darkness Praying that one day, one year maybe
I'll touch a surface